Post by Kardae on Sept 23, 2006 21:58:44 GMT -5
Dear Exiles,
I remember the MC run you guys stood up to Frostnoob and decided to leave for your own sake, and bearing the wish for betterment. A few minutes after the run, <Exiles> was born. Nevertheless, we had our share of drama: Loot Rules, Leading questions, PvE content, PvP premades, we basicly hit every invisible wall a new guild has to face. It was melody to my ears to hear about having 100% backup from the priests for me to become their Class Officer, it was a real pleasure and brought back so many memories of when I used to lead my guild.
However, now it was different. I had just entered College, had problems with my (ex)girlfriend, my mother was (and still is) going berserk on me, and many more little things to top it. Despite these handicaps, I decided to handle the responsabilities...under certain conditions. Sure, I had extra time after College. But where to spend it? Studying? Homeworks? Girlfriend? Family? I decided to organize my schedule to be able to work and raid, and it worked quite fine. Then something was told to me: You're MT Healer. Now not only was I Class Leader, I was one of the most important healers of the guild. Not only did I have to decide who gets what, I had to change my healing style, specc, basicly everything in order to help me heal better and faster. It wasn't and isn't a hard task I'd say, but still it requires a lot of devotion and time. A bit after that, my girlfriend told me she was leaving the country for a culinary arts school. Boy was I sad, but I kept being positive about it. I'd spend less money, and would have more time with everything else. Now, if you know me, then you know I am rather negative about everything and quite direct with words. So that "positive thinking" screwed me up mentally instead of helping me.
Then came a new girlfriend, one I still love and feel the best so far with. She somehow understands how WoW is important enough to take time in my schedule, but I feel guilty that sometimes I am sitting in front of my computer, waiting for a raid to happen, when we all know lately no one ever comes online in time, while I could be out with her, cuddle her, hug her, kiss her, everything sensual you know. At least she is honest with me, something I like a lot...
Bringing me to the point of this post. Today we had supper together, and she told me I didn't look healthy. "Why?" I promptly said, "What's wrong?". "You don't look happy. What were you thinking about?". I didn't really understand what she meant... "About WoW and my guild...Wait...I don't look happy?". "Not really" she said, "I don't know if I'm right, but I think you're kind of taking it too seriously and lately you've been decieved or hurt and it affected your real life." For a moment, I thought WTF? Did I take it too seriously? Was my preoccupation of WoW a grudge slowly engulfing my mental health? Was leading the thing that basicly make me go out of my mind? I don't know.
But frankly, I don't want to take any chance. So I wanted you guys know that I am, sadly, leaving Exiles and resigning my Class Leader status. I won't be taking WoW seriously for the next couple of weeks, probably playing a few hours per week at the most, but I don't deem my life worthless enough to sacrifice my mental health in order to help progress the guild I love so much. I frankly am sorry for leaving you guy on such a sad note, however it is time for me to turn the page and forget how many hours I spent mindlessly in front of my computer screen. I will definitly miss you guys, I've had a great time with all of you, and even for some of you I wish I could have met you IRL. Maybe one day, if we stay in touch, who knows...
I wish you guys the best of Luck IRL and IG, and that if you ever want to talk to me or chat a bit, I am always up for it.
-Max, aka Kardae.
PS: If you're still a noob, you might want to note these down:
MSN: im_so_thx@hotmail.com
AIM: ImSoThx
College Email: 06399608@college-em.qc.ca
because that's how you can contact me.
I remember the MC run you guys stood up to Frostnoob and decided to leave for your own sake, and bearing the wish for betterment. A few minutes after the run, <Exiles> was born. Nevertheless, we had our share of drama: Loot Rules, Leading questions, PvE content, PvP premades, we basicly hit every invisible wall a new guild has to face. It was melody to my ears to hear about having 100% backup from the priests for me to become their Class Officer, it was a real pleasure and brought back so many memories of when I used to lead my guild.
However, now it was different. I had just entered College, had problems with my (ex)girlfriend, my mother was (and still is) going berserk on me, and many more little things to top it. Despite these handicaps, I decided to handle the responsabilities...under certain conditions. Sure, I had extra time after College. But where to spend it? Studying? Homeworks? Girlfriend? Family? I decided to organize my schedule to be able to work and raid, and it worked quite fine. Then something was told to me: You're MT Healer. Now not only was I Class Leader, I was one of the most important healers of the guild. Not only did I have to decide who gets what, I had to change my healing style, specc, basicly everything in order to help me heal better and faster. It wasn't and isn't a hard task I'd say, but still it requires a lot of devotion and time. A bit after that, my girlfriend told me she was leaving the country for a culinary arts school. Boy was I sad, but I kept being positive about it. I'd spend less money, and would have more time with everything else. Now, if you know me, then you know I am rather negative about everything and quite direct with words. So that "positive thinking" screwed me up mentally instead of helping me.
Then came a new girlfriend, one I still love and feel the best so far with. She somehow understands how WoW is important enough to take time in my schedule, but I feel guilty that sometimes I am sitting in front of my computer, waiting for a raid to happen, when we all know lately no one ever comes online in time, while I could be out with her, cuddle her, hug her, kiss her, everything sensual you know. At least she is honest with me, something I like a lot...
Bringing me to the point of this post. Today we had supper together, and she told me I didn't look healthy. "Why?" I promptly said, "What's wrong?". "You don't look happy. What were you thinking about?". I didn't really understand what she meant... "About WoW and my guild...Wait...I don't look happy?". "Not really" she said, "I don't know if I'm right, but I think you're kind of taking it too seriously and lately you've been decieved or hurt and it affected your real life." For a moment, I thought WTF? Did I take it too seriously? Was my preoccupation of WoW a grudge slowly engulfing my mental health? Was leading the thing that basicly make me go out of my mind? I don't know.
But frankly, I don't want to take any chance. So I wanted you guys know that I am, sadly, leaving Exiles and resigning my Class Leader status. I won't be taking WoW seriously for the next couple of weeks, probably playing a few hours per week at the most, but I don't deem my life worthless enough to sacrifice my mental health in order to help progress the guild I love so much. I frankly am sorry for leaving you guy on such a sad note, however it is time for me to turn the page and forget how many hours I spent mindlessly in front of my computer screen. I will definitly miss you guys, I've had a great time with all of you, and even for some of you I wish I could have met you IRL. Maybe one day, if we stay in touch, who knows...
I wish you guys the best of Luck IRL and IG, and that if you ever want to talk to me or chat a bit, I am always up for it.
-Max, aka Kardae.
PS: If you're still a noob, you might want to note these down:
MSN: im_so_thx@hotmail.com
AIM: ImSoThx
College Email: 06399608@college-em.qc.ca
because that's how you can contact me.
